I wonder why there are times when it seems like your entire life gets plowed up all at once? You all know what I’m talking about. Your rolling along, just minding your own business and all of a sudden something big changes. Followed by something else. And something else. And something else. Then you think that everything that’s changed that could possible change and then there’s still something else.
I was taking Chloe to school this morning and she started talking about the earth. She said that the “earth was just dust that collected together and started spinning and then it started spinning faster and faster”. And I said “that’s not what the Bible says” and she said “well, does your Bible have science in it”? She spat the words at me. Cue my head exploding. Of course it started the “you will not talk to me like that” lecture. She said “well, that’s what my teacher said”. And that’s an issue that I’ve faced for her whole school career. Anytime I tell her something contrary to what one of her teacher says, she argues with me because she believes whatever they tell her. It’s hard to witness the making of a little humanist, especially when it’s my sweet girl.
I haven’t yet had the “infallibility of scripture” talk with her. Mostly because infallibility is a big word- and a big concept. She goes to church and we have had family Bible time although it isn’t consistent (that plus Christian school was enough for Amanda and we’ll get to that in a minute). I’m concerned though that her teachers have more credibility with her because of their position. T0 her, teachers know everything. That’s why they’re teachers.
I grew up in Christian school. It had it’s flaws and high school was a joke (anybody else do PACEs?). But in all grades, especially elementary, Bible was a subject. I learned catechism. I learned the ABC’s with Bible verses attached. I learned Science in relation to creationism. It reinforced what I was learning at church and at home. I have to say that having a Bible curriculum in the hours that I get Chloe at home would be difficult. And there’s still the issue of what she’s learning in school conflicting with home. They get her for 35 hours a week and that’s a really long time.
Amanda grew up in Christian school until 7th grade. She learned the same things I did and by the time she went to public school she was knew her stuff. She stood up for her beliefs and was able to process things in light of the truth. She didn’t just believe what they taught her. Actually, she really surprised me at how outspoken she was. But she had a solid foundation. The only difference in the way Amanda was raised (you know, besides the whole single-mom thing) versus Chloe is public school.
Is public school the whole issue? No, of course not. Every kid is different and I think that I’ve run into some issues that I hadn’t anticipated because I’m basically raising Chloe the same way I raised Amanda (I’m saying I but the “we” of Travis and Amy is implied). But she’s a completely different kid in the way she thinks and her temperament.
I had tea with a friend a couple of days ago. She home schools her kids and it’s a big challenge. And I said to her “I’m not disciplined enough to home school”. Well, I guess that’s pretty selfish of me. I’m not saying that I’m homeschooling. I will say though, that I’m willing to do whatever it takes to raise Chloe and Halle to be women of God. If that means that I have to change and be more disciplined then I’ll change. I should be working towards that anyway. If it means that we make sacrifices to put them in Christian school and never buy a nicer house, then that’s what we do. I don’t think that Chloe intended to sound so anti-Bible. It’s not in her. But I think that I got a glimpse of the future and what could be if we don’t intervene now. In all honesty, I’m angry. I’m angry that they teach that stuff as fact to kids who are at school to learn. I ask her to believe it when her teacher says that 1+1=2, so how is she supposed to discern what she’s supposed to believe and what she’s not? I don’t think she can unless she has the proper foundation. I’m just not sure where to start. It’s almost like learning to parent all over again.