That’s my way of saying it comes in waves. There’s just too, too much going on right now. Ok, swallow your coffee first. Are you done? I don’t want you to spit. But I was seeing a counselor. Twice. I saw a counselor twice. And this last time she told me I was dealing with too much to go through counseling right now. Funny, no? It made me laugh. And I felt much less stressed to know that I could take that off my plate.
God is being really good. I have a deep peace and sometimes I feel totally relaxed. Then other times I let go of the peace and get back to being overwhelmed. I feel though, that I’m knocking on the door of breakthrough. Like it could happen any second so being patient and waiting for it is tough.
We have decided what to do with the girls for school. It’s what I’ve wanted all along and that’s for them to be in the Academy at church. It’s an academy for home schoolers where they attend school two days a week and the other three days are at home. I would be responsible for math and language arts. I don’t look at this as Utopia, but for us I think it’s the best choice. I still want them in a classroom environment, to have friends and teachers but I want it done more efficiently. I don’t see any reason why my girls can’t learn everything they need to learn in fewer hours per week. I’ll know exactly what they’re learning and if there’s something they don’t understand we can tackle it instead of finding out they don’t understand because they come home with a poor grade on a test. I don’t want them locked in a classroom all day long and for our entire life to be scheduled around a school schedule. Yes, I know they’ll still be in school but I’m much more in control. It’s going to be a challenge to be sure and a different kind of stress but we know that this is the direction our family is heading.
It makes me wonder, “why now”?But we’re in a season of testing. Pastor Dale said this past Sunday “testing isn’t supposed to be easy, it’s supposed to be effective”. I suppose I should know that. I just feel like I’ve been hit by a train. But I had another thought “what if this is the final exam”? Not that testing is over forever but for this season, for this last 10 years…what if this is the final exam? I have to tell you that I’m very excited at that prospect. I pray that it is. And I really want to pass the test.
So for now the thought of simplicity is so appealing to me. To live simply and not worry about impressing people with success or, well, anything that you might impress someone with. I think I’ve been past the point of impressing people for quite some time. My thought for simplicity for today is to get the laundry put away, sit in my ugly-comfy chair, put my feet up and read one of the magazines I get but haven’t read because I can’t work out. And relax. I am feeling relaxed, in waves. I wish I could get to the point of staying there but unfortunately, I have to work at it.
Now along those lines, I’m going to pass on a little tip that one of my Facebook friends passed along. The Simple Mom is a website filled with all sorts of goodies for living simply and thrifty with lots of different topics that would appeal to most of you. The article on how to clean your face naturally was really interesting to me. I tried just olive oil last night because I don’t have any castor oil to work with. I have to say though that it was really nice. Except that I got some oil in my eye…that wasn’t as nice.
Now I’m off to finish the things I haven’t finished. I don’t think my ugly-comfy chair reading time will be tonight but it will be soon…
*disclaimer- I haven’t exactly scoured The Simple Mom site but I like what I’ve read so far…so, you know, it’s not a ringing endorsement. I like the thought of saving $$$ on face cleanser 🙂